"I know I should be communicating, but I’m not..."

I haven’t blogged in a while.
Four months to be exact.
And my tweets over the last weeks are noticably fewer.
My rationale has been: I am going through a lot of change right now. I should be extra careful about what I say and plus…. I’m really, really busy. (Sound familiar?)

In reality, my change isn’t really all that big or different than changes that happen all of the time: I’ve recently got myself into a new project at work that has more responsibility doing something that I’m very, very passionate about. But the transition felt tough for me. Lots of juggling. Lots of times when it was unclear if it would work out.

Frankly I was a little afraid of saying "too much" by blogging during this change.
(And for sure, there was extra work juggling the new opportunity and managing my old work.)

As a professional communicator—if I had met me during this change—I would have coached with all kinds of questions like:
- Couldn’t you use your blog as a tool for reflection during the change?
- Couldn’t it be part of an overall approach to stay connected with friends and colleagues?
- Couldn’t it help you cope and make sense with all of the change?
- Couldn’t the blog help you get connected to others who might be able to support?

I knew all of this. Still I couldn’t…. I didn’t.
The very good thing about this for me is having the experience.
Now I’ve personally connected with how lots of business leaders feel as they implement and guide organizational change. My own empathy has grown for the mindset that says, “I get it that we should be communicating more, and being more transparent... but it's difficult. Something holds me back.”
That's a pretty good experience to be able to relate to. Don't you think?